I am closing my eyes once my head hits the pillow and a thought appears in my mind: ‘so what do I wanna dream about today?’. There appears a big old-looking book - like the ones we see in the libraries with a hardcover, yellow pages with little jagged edges and as if it cloaks all the secret knowledge of the world. However, the one I have in front of my eyes is not with any spells or banned rituals but with bright and happy tales. Dreams I can choose from. Tonight I want to dream about a green land where I am safe and sound. I close the book and fall deeper into the dream world or a different reality. A place where I can be whomever I want and do whatever I want. My breath slows down as I step into this other dimension. And tomorrow night I will do it all over again.
In today’s society, heavily influenced by social media, the pressure to look a certain way is very high. As a result, many young people fall into unhealthy relationships with food. This leads to different kinds of eating disorders. In my project, I wanted to give a voice to Marie, who struggles with anorexia and bulimia to tell her story. She was denied help because she never looked “sick enough”. An eating disorder is not simply a weight problem, but an everyday mental fight that can’t always be observed from the outside, leaving many people without the help they need to recover.